So last Wednesday I found out I got hired for a new job. I thought I would be totally excited, but when I found out I just started crying….and no, they were not tears of joy. I couldnt figure out why I was so upset. I mean I will be making 2 1/2 times what I am making now, I will have full insurance benifits and all that jazz. I mean this is a no brainer right.
So I was upset all morning. I kept thinking to myself, you have worked hard for this job, and now you got it, and your thinking about not taking it. What the hell is the matter with you. So I ended up accepting the job. I am still not sure I am really happy about it, but its an offer I cant refuse.
I dont like change is my problem, any kind of change. I attach very easily and I dont like to unattach. So I think that is my problem. I am going to have to give up things I am attached to.
March 27, 2007 at 11:50 pm
I can relate! Who knows though, maybe you’ll attach to this job and it will be a very good thing. I’m glad you decided to give it a shot.
March 31, 2007 at 1:41 am
i understand. success brings with it it’s own set of stresses. even moreso than not succeeding. raises the bar so to speak.
it’s easy to stay where we are. even if it’s not the best place for us..it’s normalcy..it’s what we are attatched to…it brings comfort.
at any rate…taking the job is moving forward. you may like it you may not. but you did a very brave thing in not standing still and taking a shot at change!